Fear

Hellooo im finally backk!

Im so sorry its been a long time since I blog, a lot of things happened and things are really getting busy this year. (But still theres no excuses><)

After I was back from Taiwan around near end of last year,soon after I had an little unexpected accident and had a emergency surgery to remove my already ruptured appendix. Then I had to catch up in school as things get busier.

Though it was a near death experience (I guess you could say that) I was really grateful that I was not one of those cases where they unfortunately didnt get through...

Thinking back now I felt really blessed, everyone were anxious and worried about me, family is always there for you no matter what.

Also during the days in hospital I learned to deal with things that I though I wont be able to overcome in my life.  No matter how much you think you can avoid what you fear the most, some day you'll still encounter them somehow eventually.

Beside dealing with extreme pain, few of my worst fears came true X/

Seeing blood,the idea of someone cutting me up and swallowing humongous pills.

Turns out it was painless but It took a long time for the anesthesia to work for me cuz I was panicking as if someones gonna butcher me hahas.

The after effects were harder to deal with though.

 Followed by the horror of needing to take antibiotics pills for an extra few months as there were still some infection.

 The fear of choking is real.  Looking back, im just like sitting here swallowing fish oils pills like nothing muehehe.

Then the fear of blood was better too X)  and i finally found out what blood type i am!    That was  a relieve but I would still faint in front of a murder scene. (Who wouldnt)    and I finally found out what blood type I am!! Imma A+ ^_^

Fears and phobia aren't easy to overcome but I believe everyone can do that too if facing them is the only way.
Insecurites are the same as well, you just have to try it before you say you cant.

Because you are strong and you just need to realise that. X)

"The beautiful thing about fear is that if you run to it, it runs away."

(Just a random flower pot sitting in front of my window( : )

Falling down

I remember the other day me and my friend was having a conversation and we somehow in some point talk about  pulling yourself up after you've been beaten and fallen down countless and countless of times.


                                 We all experience that.

                                                  We all know how hard can that be.


Each time you try to get up, you have lesser energy to and its even harder.  

Having the correct mentality and a positive aspect of different things is going to hard but it is going affect you a lot.
Take a step back and reflect whether is it you  suffering from a break up to pet loss/friend/family to your dreams and being who you are..  


                                             *All pictures belong to its rightful owner:)

When I was in one of my darkest moments, nobody was there to help me but only myself (even though sometimes I would still get that here and there, but I realise of the state im in and be like Nope nope, not going there!)  And I sort of get out of there by myself and I am proud of it : ) It just proves that even if you got nobody, you still can make it through by yourself because you have you.   Aw have you vomited yet?

Countless of self questioning, self doubt and sometimes in the spur of moment you do the wrong thing and ask yourself something that you would never do (negatively)

(Dont go all out to achieve something that you want. Some relationships isn't worth throwing away for the things that you want)

  Because of that one or several times that you tried and didn't turn out as you would like to.  I know very well of the fear of doing anything and everything and ending up doing nothing at all.

 But after that? 

Yea it definitely get me staying in my comfort zone but.... i didn't get to say what I want and I didn't get to do what I want. 

Self confidence, believing dreams, positivity, overcoming anxiety/depression... so many other links that are connected to this , that they are so important I don't wanna squeeze everything in one single post.  

Start a fresh , you dont have to rush anything this is not a marathon to see who reach the end first and most of time when you try to rush you end up stumbling, falling and not being able to catch up with everything you had done, and it might just as well be you have not done and learn nothing? Start with baby steps , slow and steady.

As you probably already heard before, be yourself dont be what others want you to be,    you gotta spare yourself a thought because you are worth it. Do what you truely want to do. You ,when you are older would be so thankful that you did this now : )

Keep trying, it doesn't matter how many times you fall nor it must definitely be how many times you get up (to an extent) to get that achievement.

  Even if you keep falling down, even if its a minute longer your standing than the last time you did, its still an achievement. 

Nothing left to fight for? Nope, you have! Yourself : ) 
Waking up another day and expecting it to completely change isn't gonna work out if you do nothing. Do something to lead the life that you want to. Challenge yourself to do something different than what you usually do.

 

:P

I know there are so many other points that I have not covered and other perspective about this but this is what I got for now.

 Hopefully it'll at least help  at least one of you even just the slightest bit, then this post was worth it . It was a bit of a challenge for me to write about these sort of topic as I have never ever done this before,and its quite difficult for me to open up to telling (ooh and its probably all over the place because it nearly 2 in the morning here and my eyelids are dropping down every 5 sec, I would probably edit that when I wake up later today ) so many reasons that im debating whether should I post this but I know alot of people are feeling the same way as I did before and I want to help. I mean I hope that I help.. 

 I should probably write this at the beginning of the post to give you a clear idea of why im writing this but I figured those who are willing to stay at the end , then this would apply to you more (Im guessing)  Im not always sunshine and candies (yep i love those) hopefully this doesn't completely ruin the impression some of you guys have of me but this is part of who I am : )

If you have anything that you want to add on, or another perspective I would love to hear from you!<3 Have a great day!♡

 

All the best : )

Bath and body works hand sanitizers♡

Hello! Welcome back to my bloggie!
Im sorry (like always) that I took so long to post something up because I didn't know what to write about, but since today is halloween, I decided to show you a couple of things that I have been liking for halloween.

Since in Singapore it is not a thing for most of them to celebrate halloween like you guys out there do in the US etc. However some of us like me is a little upset that they don't have a whole lot of halloween things in store here.

And when I went out shopping recently and found some bath and body works hand sanitizers i couldn't resist  buying a couple of them, even though I had to pay so much more than the amount of 1++USd converted to Sgd because of the shipping fee.

Apparently I wasn't allowed to test the sanitizers out unless im buying (the ones I tried out)
So it was really hard to choose which ones I will like hence I had to pick out them only by the names. I picked out three of them; warm vanilla sugar and two of them halloween edition ; Hoot berry (which I think it smells like a mixture of grapes and apples scented) and vampire blood ( a mixture of plum and strawberries)   Their colours are so bold and almost neon!♡

Sorry for the crappy quality:/  I ddon't have a proper camera so im just using my phone

(The halloween ones doesn't show up that bold than in real life because im also using a filter)

The halloween ones smell sooooo delicious!!! <3 Warm vanilla sugar isn't favourite because it doesn't smell like what it says,  I feel like its more of a flowery vanilla scented then vanilla sugar.

My other favourite that I bought a while back was the Candy cane or peppermint (I forgot I lost it. ): ) and Pumpkin spice latte or pumpkin caramel latte.(I forgot their names!><) Both of them is heavenly delicious I can't even. Im still searching for them :"(

I dont even care even after halloween and fall and when winter and spring comes  i would still use them cuz you need to give me more time to appreciate these lovely babies! <3
You should get those if you haven't got them, even though you guys probably already own the entire collection of them. X)

Hello there~ I came back after i posted  up to post to add something:) 

Google plus is so cute, look at that little pumpkin right thereXD

Im sorry if this is normal for you guys that have been using google plus for more than one year and seen this before, this is my first time seeing this! :D

Happy Halloween! ♡♥

What is your  top three favourite scents? : )

Just a little update| Penny board, Daiso, Yogurt bars

Hihihi!!!!

So long no blog!  I miss you guys , how are you doing???:D

My exams just ended yesterday and I really want to blog-  but I realised I didn't prepare anything. So this little post will just be an update im so sorry

But I will be working on a blog that will be up in a few more days(or weeks >< ) ; ) *pinky promise*

Okay first things first when I logged in to blogger yesterday , I happened to press Into one of my older blogs and oh my god; the typos, and nonsense made me realised how much I made a fool out of myself hahas. So I deleted all of them and left about 4 of the latest blog posts thats why I only have four blog post , 5 including this one by the time I upload. Incase you noticed and got confused hahas. Even though my english still sucks.

As much as I know yall still can find my old blog posts its not really a secret to hide(thats why I told you those blog post were really bad ) but I just prefer to not appear in my profile post thingy, I really like blogging so I dont wanna write something very sloppy, even though I may still be and writing an random post right now.

 This is basically like vlog except in blog form , extremely random. (Well any type of blog is a blog so okay, its a blog without a topic)

 Today me and my two other friends went to parkway to see some guitars because I had to return my cousin's one and I really need to play a guitar cuz i love them so muchhh. We also went to the awesome Daiso, in case you dont know whats that, its bascially a Japanese store that sells everything from cooking utensils to travel essentials to DIY crafts to Cosmetics and of course food all for 2 bucks each item. Pretty cool huh?:D I got a packet of the takoyaki crackers and tried their can of coffee for the first time and it was soooogoood. (Hahaha KFC, if you know what im talking about:P)



We also went to Giant, which is something like a walmart(except no guns ofc, they are illegal here)/ Target in Singapore and we fooled all around there, found some penny board and scooters and tried them on for the first time. I know they are kinda "out of trend" now as its really popular last time but who cares hahahas. I actually have really bad balancing skills and was surprised I didn't fall flat on my face or something. Now im also yearning for one too :"(    Money money, why you gotta be so hard to make??

A pic from Google hahas. Its bigger than what it looks like in here :D

Side note: I have no intention to make this look like a primary school kid with extremely bad writing skills writing a compo bragging about what he did and how perfect life is hahas. Thats not true okai.
Im terrified because I think I may have given you the impression of this now.XD

Okay anyways we got some yogurt/muesli bars that were on a tiny sale in Giant; they were having buy 2 and you pay lesser than what its normally priced and because I got really hungry as well and was searching for food hahaha.

Its the brand Yogood, and I got them in Wildberry and Strawberry.
Its cereal mixed with fruits coated with yogurt on one side of a bar.   They are less than 100 calories which is okay*i think? Calories are confusing )and high in dietary fibre so its good for you to....uh for your bowels hahas. Im actually thinking of choosing Home econ next year which is my 9th grade (15) Speaking of which im scared to end up in different classes with my close friends so fingers cross!!><

 Anyways Im thinking to eat them on my way to school, because I always wake up late and have no time for breakfast. Its really bad for you, fact: it kills some of your brain cells or something like that.

I know its supposed to be a breakfast thingy  but I ate one of each, in the afternoon and another 2 for dinner hahah.
Its great for all of you out there especially if you don't want to exercise like me :P but still wanna eat something healthy and delicious.

Thats about everything, see you next time very soon for another bloggy!!!!

Have a nice day beautifuls: )

Study and organisation tips!

Hello! 

Im finally back again with another blog, im so sorry, things really does get a lot busy lately and definitely gonna get more busier. My finals are coming up really soon in less than a month and im gonna buck up and do my revisions in hopes that I can actually save my terrible results. Hahas.

Since this week's a holiday, I thought i could squeeze in a little bloggy for today to compensate for you all:P 

Please do bear in mind this would most likely to be the last blog before I go for my finals, and I will be back for more after the exams. Hope you guys understand that!

Ps. So I recently got sick and it was quite bad, wasn't able to taste and smell up to now, it was like no food till I got better. Living hell.
      
    
Nice, now pass me the salt.



Enough of that, lets get into the main topic of today's blog. 

Since finals are just around the corner, I decided to share with you guys a few ideas and study tips and ways to organise your stuff to help you study and focus better. 

 

Hahas XD 

Everyone have different ways to study better so its not a one size fits all, you have to try out and see which one works the best for you.



1. Study group -If you cant concentrate studying by yourself, you can try to have a small study group, preferably 1 to around say 3 because the bigger the group the most probability that it will end up with nothing complete but just messing around, playing and empty bags of potato chips. *Study with people that are serious to study.



  2. "Brain food"- We all know we cant do without food. Snack on something preferably healthy, which not only is obviously healthier, it can help your brain to work better.

A quick and easy healthy snack that I like to do is to take a variety of berries and mix them with yogurt and a drizzle of honey and granola if you prefer. Yumm~

3. Fidgety- if you are a fidgety person that cant sit still for long, take more frequent short breaks in between but make sure to come back focus and continue.

4. Where did that mind fly off to?-If your mind tends to go somewhere else easily like me, try putting away anything distracting to you.

 You can also set the mood by listening to soft  music or even just lighting up a scented candle to relax and puts you in the mood to study. It works for me everytime. (Just remember not to burn down anything with the candle)

5. Sticky notes!- They serve great as reminders to let you know how many days you are  left for the exams and write encouraging stuff to motivate yourself.

( Photo belongs to its rightful owner and im not advertising them): ) Gel  highlighters are so cool and different from the normal ones.

6. Highlighters- Nothing new here, just make sure to really highlight only the key points not paint the whole page with yellow neon ink.

7. Write- Some people that I know, actually most, including myself have find that writing out the information actually helps you to remember the content better.Take it also a chance to practise the handwriting as well. Hahas.


8. Read and read and read. Yeahh its pretty self-explanatory.

9. Notebook-This one's my personal favourite and I use it all the time. Basically what i do is I summarise the contents in a small notebook that I can easily carry around with and at the end of each topic, I write down a list of questions that I can test myself if I really remember them and if I dont, I can always flip to the front and refer.
Its gonna be a little more amount of effort and time put into but trust me it works really really well!!  

10. Flash cards- you can either do what the picture shows or write the word on one side and the definition of it on the other side, they help so much and makes everything so much easier to work with.



Now on to study organisation! !

To be able to focus and study better, firstly you will need a suitable environment to work with!

  

(Wow...that is way so fancy!! )

Make sure you are in a suitable environment to study, relatively quiet, depending how sensitive you are, good lighting and comfortable amount of space.

If you dont have that in your home, you can always go to the library or even school!

Next, a messy desk?  Cant do. Clear out all the messy stuff, and start organising them.

Then arrange them into categories- pens, pencils, markers, highlighters, coloured pens etc.

Use any container to store them, or if you dont have them, why buy them when you can make the best out of toilet rolls?  Yep toilet rolls. Don't throw em toilet rolls! 

Make your own unique choice of design and texture!
You can just paint them over and draw some cute designs on or you could go all out like the picture, using different colour yarns and buttons and all kind of fanciful stuff! 

Then there you have it, your diy stationary holder ! :)


You can also use small containers thats lying around in your house, or you can buy them in cheap prices to fill up your drawers to organise them.  You definitely can decorate them to your own desire :D

isn't cute? <3

Here's some of my favourite songs that would help you loosen up a bit.

Drive by- Madilyn Bailey and Jake Coco cover  http://youtu.be/Lfkvj58XyBk

Use somebody- Boyce Avenue and Hannah Trigwell cover http://youtu.be/HNrgK8h2xBc

Chandelier-Sia http://youtu.be/2vjPBrBU-TM

Safe and sound- Jayesslee cover http://youtu.be/7iX4zejt1dc

Breakeven-Jayesslee cover  http://youtu.be/yT5LOtQSSn8
(Yeah i love the 2 so much♡♡)



Alright here's about what i got for you now, make sure to drink up lots of water, dont give up!

Starbucks + studying= perfection!♥

Goodluck and all the best everyone!! : )

Birds commiting suicide| Personal things

What else could have ever been worser during these past few weeks than more than usual stress about school , being left out while everyone is just partying around (when my good friends cant be at there) and birds commiting suicide onto you(is that even correct grammar)/killing me, mind block/(what the hell I was thinking) in my favourite subject class test thats perhaps linked to the bird's?

That one day, the freaking (cock eye) bird swooped down nearly taking off my head with it (probably exaggerated a lil, but still that mthr effer) At first I heard the chirppings of the birds I thought nothing of (who would have expected from it) and just went my way towards the lift to get home that exhausting day and then it happened, it felt like and I thought that someone threw a ball out of the window from the highest level down my head and was beyond shocked.

  I angrily absentmindedly thought of what could have cause it to happen. My patient calm side thought: The (probably) male bird may have gotten a fight with the female bird and fly off, assumed from the loud chirppings cox hey, females always wins;) ( surprised of myself being able to be happy n shalala still) or maybe it just mistaken the pin on my head for a worm or something.

 Then the "negative" bold burst in and cursed the idiot bird that is most definitely mocking at me and making my hair looked like I was shock by electricity; it literally stood up (it sort of clawed the area my pin held my fringe) and my hate towards it muliplied tremendously.
Every time since then I walk pass that particular area there's always chirpping and sometimes there's one particular bird with the scary eyes staring at me.

(I washed my hair three times that night)

Freaking gosh, I swear I did nothing to it, and my house probably feed it countless times seeing my grandmother always puts some bread pieces at the window area where you slide the windows(or push/pull) that ungrateful little piece of shit. Yep im afraid yet hating on it. And now its psychologically making me dedicate most of this blog post to it urghh.

But it feels better and clearer after I say it out~~ ahhh~ *peace*

Sorry lorh (bcuz its sg birthday so alert singlish) previous post if you've read it it was also about disgusting pests, insects. (I know bird is not one, but u know what I mean)

And sorry again for posting such a depressing post (somehow)on my country national day!!!!!!!!! ^_^ <-- there thats one nice lil face

 If its not what interests you (most probably doesn't) im sorry (again) I'll make sure next post would be a happier one : )

Its just another one of my sadder days. .______. (I cant stop thinking how that face looks cute at the same time)

It'll get better:)

Skeptical bleech people always never fails to amuse me. Another one of my personal entertainment:)

And I'll do better the next test. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSS!!!!

Ps. I would make no comments about the bird anymore,  its better to keep quiet than to say nasty things : )

Hehehe.

"Its just moving chocolate"

So in some parts of the world, insects and eh, worms etc are considered as a delicacy. They usually have it either fully cooked/half cooked or even raw. For me personally i prefer sushi or chicken or something. I do not know how the first person who try to think that eating a disgusting squirming slimy worm down your throat and be like "wow, this is really good! " is a good idea comes about but......




I'VE EATEN SOMETHING LIKETAT BEFORE.



OH.

WAIT.




EVEN MORE DISGUSTING.


Several tiny cockcroaches..


OFC ACCIDENTLY.



LIVE.

It happened somewhat a while ago, but its okay. If its not one of my favourite food(oh darn) but now, im still refusing to go into subway.


That day I went into subway and get a few pieces of double chocolate cookies,(---> who doesn't love these?) and was eating them on my way back home and still had some chunks left when I was at home.
My father demands some so I gave a chunk to him(he's got a sweet tooth too:)), and he look down at the piece I given him and let out a short shout. I was startled and horrified when he told me that there were insects in them, and for a moment I thought he was kidding until I look down at my LAST bite and true enough.......I saw a few tiny black things crawling around it.

***
That was definitely my first bad experience I ever had with subway and am still terrifed typing this. Wait....maybe I did'nt realise... it may happen before.....

I was so tempted to write a complain to subway about why they leave those cookies out for so long,(it must be) probably going to expire or even have expired  and about their hygiene but i had the evidence thrown away in shocked and decided to let go and not make a huge deal over it since i am still alive. (Reason am blogging this is just random and a caution to yall) Make sure you check your food before biting it!! Obviously..but I guess im the only one. *crys*

When you exceeded the shelf life of any cookie, scratch that, before you are about to exceed, throw it out for god sake, its disgusting and dangerous.

Luckily, I did not have any stomachache or disease or what so ever, (god bless thank you) you can never assure anything with those live monsters crawling around the trash and then infesting your food and probably even laying a few eggs on them. Okay, im like making it even disgusting and horrified and maybe yall too hehes.

So when I told my friends about it, their faces were looks of disbelief and shock but after recovering, they even joke around and say it was moving chocolate.

Oh you know, magical things in this world muahaha xD  It was hard to see cuz both things are very similar in colour and I guess I was too careless and hungry.
Btw, if you have a google plus account, don't forget to '+ me' and follow me lah?:) (at the right side)

 When i type in "moving chocolate" in google. (google is weird sometimes muahha)
Nope, not teaching y'all how to bake these goodness.

Even if i want to.

 Coz this girl cant cook a thing except eggs-with eggshells in them.

I've got a uke!

Like as almost every post, am so so so sorry for the late upload, for some reason I had some issues logging into blogger, so to my displeasure I had to reset everything urgh.

(Hi, just an update; I deleted all previous posts before this one, so this is not my first blog post. I will mention more about it soon.)

*clears throat* To be frank, even if my account was working fine,  honestly to tell you with my thick skin , that I actually was hibernating throughout the june holidays with The fault in our stars while everybody else is just doing something progressive in their life. That book is freaking awesome lah, should have come with some packs of tissues with Hazel and Augustus on it, or even Issac or something :/

I've yet to see the movie , but i will, soon this time my laziness shall not win lol. The book does a bigger effect on me. *swipes fringe*

Hmmp what else? Ohh, it is sometimes ago, but we hit 1000 views yay! :)))

Eh okay you know what? Ignore the piglet thing, some time back i occurred some problem so i use that for a test and forgot about it. (I still haven't deleted this :P)

I was actually quite surprise that this shit deserve the amount of views (some people may think its an extremely small amount but i appreciate every view) hehe but i wont complain. Thank you y'all! :D

And the suppose only time that I kind of got up from my hibernation for a very limited time is when I went out with my mum and got a uke (ukulele) of my own *sighs dreamily* Uke sounds much more cooler c: Right? Right. Okay:P

I think I have been eyeing for one since last year or what, and I did ask my mom a couple of couple of times ( ya in other words quite a lot hehehe) , I forgot but then one day I saw a ukulele video on youtube, again, I was like I really really feel like getting one, so I told my mom about it (again)and I was expecting her to be " no, use the guitar your cousin lent you!" But she said okay sure, and ask me whether I've got any experience with it, which I don't but I am more willingly to learn. ( I think cuz she know im seriously serious about it, seeing how often I play my cousins guitar, and ofc my pestering muahahah)

So a few days later we went to the shop at a quite isolated place around lavender, dunno what what, then it was seperated with a river and we had to take the long way to near the end of the freaking long river and u-turn back to the building  because the bridge was closed for renovation.

Ooh, the trouble we went for truke, that's his name for now :)

Im super guilty towards my mom for all the trouble she went for me,(thank you so much) and when we were going back, we saw some amazing fireworks very near us and even took a  video of it! ^^

And after maybe a couple of hours of deciding what uke should I get,  I settled on this beautiful one.

My uke Is kind of mahogany coloured and the soundhole is the standard seashell shaped and I thought that was pretty cute:)

If the light is not shone on it :) ( sry for the crappy quality)

With light and ya, the very pretty tile linings -_- (i had no idea where to take the photo)

Close up:D (Real life a tad darker)

(I have no idea why every photo I take comes out a different colour ..) 

Anyways it also have  a build-in tuner on the side but i lai bu ji take (ran out of time to take) cux my phone was running out of battery

And dont wanna wait for this post to be drag on anymore, so ya, its by Aleho and is a tenor, thats why I call it Truke. (Uke+T (enor)) Tuke sounds disgusting so, Truke yeah! ^^ Its nothing super professional but it'll do for me ^_^

A tenor is about 26 inches long and i got mine for about a 100-150++, you can get uke lowest from about 60 bucks to a hundred or even thousands depending on the quality and the size. 

I've been playing everyday since then, still not so good but I like it very much muahahaha

School was better overall, I get to sit near with my closer friends :) and I've been put to sit next to a damn smart and chio and sweet GIRL, (ps. Still abit shy around her hehes>< ) over the years I've been cruelly put next to disgusting boys (im straight *ran a hand through my hair*) but I always knew my form teacher has something against me..>< ; he put me in front....again..

*cries* *put biscuit into my mouth* *strums uke*

Byueee swee yo mext tiwme! (SOrry if its too long hehe)